Wednesday, October 25, 2017
I'm a day late already for confession so I must hurry along. Follow me to the confessional....
It's been one week and one day since my last confession. I'm seeking special dispensation for being a day tardy and I hope it is granted. I will make no flimsy excuse, at least once last night it occurred to me that it was that time, but somehow it simply did not get done. I confess that I must do better.
Postseason baseball has not gone well for me so far. Now that the World Series has started and it's between the Dodgers and the Astros I naturally am hopefully of an LA Dodger loss Go Stros! I confess that any SF Giants fan worthy of the orange and black would be rooting for the Astros.
This weekend I believe I had some positive results from my writing. Will be talking soon with my mentor about it so I'll see what she sees in it. I confess that I have been brimming with writing ideas. Kind of scary since sometimes I hit a wall and well, I have to put all the pieces back together before I can get going again.
Yesterday I was thinking about a quote from Pablo Neruda - "Every day you play with the light of the universe." I'm still thinking about it today. I think of it as an affirmation. It's not played - past tense, but "you play!" I also think about the universe as a constant stream of light. Even at night, the stars are screaming light at us. It makes me think of the universe as a playground. A continual source of inspiration and creativity. Kind of a simple but awesome concept. Anyway, I'm embracing it.
Till next time-- Go Astros!
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
It has been one fall week since my last confession.
I confess that when I get new reading material (especially poetry) in the mail I get crazy happy.
This week Laura Kasischke's latest book "Where Now" arrived in my mailbox. This was cause for some dancing. I did it inside so the neighbors did not think that I was crazy or at least confirm their preconceived notions.
While we are on the subject of things that add a smile to my face, it's fall and I love the bright orange and red Maple leaves. And as I mention this I confess that a bit of sadness comes over me as I realize that since we sold our home and moved, I will no longer have the two surprise Maples in the backyard to admire. They were a daily infusion of joy. The Iris flowers did the same for me, but that is another season. They will be missed as well.
During this past week, I had some worry about Silas, our rescue German Shepard. He was not keeping food down and had diarrhea. I am happy to say that he seems on the mends.
Like I suppose everyone else, the disasters - Hurricanes, tropical storms, earthquakes and most recently the California fires have occupied my mind. (at least that part not consumed by our moronic President) These disasters underscore just how fragile life can be. I know so many people that were within the striking path of the fires in northern California. The many of you have been on my mind and in my thoughts and prayers. I confess that it seems totally incomprehensible what life for those in the path of the horrific fires. Not only lives threatened but homes and whole communities. It is times like these that you wake up, inhale and count your own blessings to be alive.
I think art, writing, music & especially poetry are the medicine for our souls. I confess that in these times, the arts seem less like the luxury some believe they are and more like an essential ingredient ofday to day living.
If you are reading this, you may be suffering in ways that none of us can imagine. For those, I know your pain is real and you have my thoughts and prayers. But if you are reading this, you also have life. I hope you will rejoice in that fact. We have ourselves & we have each other.
Until next time - be safe!
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
It has been seven weeks since my last confession. These things happen. You get busy, you get tired, you find yourself in a trance, or lost in a poem whose end has not been written yet and you don't know how the hell to get out of it and seven weeks have passed and you are asking forgiveness for being such a lousy confessor.
I guess seven weeks ago I was marvelling at the sight of the solar eclipse. Today, I confess I'm just happy the sun came up on another day. This causes me to ask a serious of questions that I can't believe I even have to ask... Like:
- Why do we need a president anyway?
- Why is he hell-bent on constantly keeping us on the brink of war?
- Why has he sold out to a foreign adversary?
- Why does he coddle Nazis and white supremacists?
- Why is Trump more immature than the average 4-year-old?
- Why is he challenging a cabinet member to an IQ contest to prove who the real moron is?
- Why is all this for real and not reality TV? Why can't we just turn it all off and make it go away?
I have started working with another poet who is mentoring me specifically towards more impactful poetry. So far I believe that there are some positive developments in the way I approach my writing. I confess that it is too early to see the changes I want to achieve but I feel good about it and that is a good starting point.
I have a reading at the end of this month and I confess that I want to read some new stuff that no one has heard yet. This means reworking several drafts that I have been sitting on.
Trying to be a better writing steward I have agreed to work with other mentees from our Spring W2W session to help facilitate discussion among the Fall W2W session mentees on Facebook. I confess that I enjoy seeing the excitement that these writers have for their particular genre. I think it's infectious. I believe this is something you would want to catch.
Ivy Alvarez turned me on to the poet Brigit Pegeen Kelly by introducing me to the poem "Song" I confess this is one of the more powerful poems that I've read for quite a while.
It turned cooler last night. It's feeling more like October. Oh, and there is fall ball! While I miss my Giants - I am happy the Indians have played a great season and right now they are tied with NY in the divisional series. Fingers crossed that they win the world series this year, I confess my eyes are crossed too but that may be because I'm especially tired.
Until next time, be safe and stay sane. Someone has to.