"Most of my life was spent not understanding, and I can assure you it was not easy." ~ Rilke
Superbowl Sunday and I have no desire to watch this years game. The puppy bowl is no alternative because once you've seen it - you've see all there is - ad nauseum. What I could go for is simply a special feed of the Super Bowl commercials back-to back.
Yes, I sound a little cranky. I'm cranky for a number of reasons of which one is the fact that for the third time since Thanksgiving, I'm sick. Three times in three months! Who is responsable for inflicting these germs upon me? I'm ready to turn my body over the Dr. House knowing full well he'll make me sincker before I get better... but then I will have the answer. Calling Dr. House! Calling Dr. House!
I'm not a person who does sick well (in case you haven't noticed) and my family knows that once I get down, it means really not feeling well because I'm the kind of person who fights it. All the time the body signs are screaming "your sick," my matra is the repeat, "you are not sick, you are not getting sick, you will not be sick..." I suppose you could argue that there is a degree of deleriam associated with my view of the surrounding facts.
So here I am, tired of lying around this weekend - caughing till my chest and head are sore. Feeling closed in. Knowing that what I want to do is throw the windows open and let some air (albeit cold) throughout the house. I want to do something besides look at the ceiling from the bed and I certainly don't waqnt to watch the Super Bowl OR the pupy bowl tape loop - both of which make my stomach turn. Yes, I know the puppies can be cute. but it isn't long before it's like reading principally the same poem written by six different people. There is nothing new.