Still, as a heart between beats
One side of the fullest measure
The other side of the empty pit
I count the number of empty
Mock reason till I cry
Tears soaked in dysphoria
Pensive head in hand
Neuropathy rattles inside
The disconnect pulls
Chicken plucked from the bone
Gray matter- real, proven
According to Einstein
But dead like the soon to be night
Dying embers
Huff- they glow
But alone they show no will
No gasping- no desire
Numb, black tarnishing gray
A shadow circles overhead
Am I keeping him up
Or is this my wake
Night becomes the insulation
It is all there is to swallow
It claws at the insides
The night belongs to no one
But me- a poison apple
Polished black hematite
Even the circling shadow
Has lost faith
Surrendering me to dystopia
The desire for another-
Treasonous to the night
A verdict read in silence
Bailiff touches my shoulder
Reminding me the night is long
It may never comply
And end at all-
But provide eternal company
Through this solitary screaming purgatory
Empty to touch
Empty to warmth
Empty to breath
Empty to the rise and fall of love
Poetry