Forgive me as I rush in at the 11th hour to make my confession. It's been a week of highs and lows since my last confession. Like the weather over this week my mood has risen and dropped like the mercury in a thermometer.
Some of you may remember the mood rings that became the rage in the mid-1970's. The ring changed colors based upon the warmth projected from your body. The color of the ring would signify the mood of the wearer. For instance an Indigo or darker blue meant the person was deeply relaxed, happy, love-struck, etc. Black might mean fear, angst, serious, overworked or depressed. Orange was stressed, nervous, confused, challenged... you get the picture.
In general the week has been more upbeat then down. I had a really good weekend. Lots of writing and writing related stuff accomplished and that made me happy. Actually the better part of last week was good.
I confess that a staffing shortage at work added to my stress and I felt myself moving between black and orange. (yes, the colors of my San Francisco Giants)
I confess that when I cam home Monday night I was so exhausted I dropped in bed until I could relax a bit and then got up to eat. The staff shortage will continue for a few weeks and that certainly accentuates the anxiety. Tonight, I almost brushed off Confession altogether, but I didn't.
Here I am and I have to say that the one thing that I have learned this past week is that I really seem to get a rush of sorts when I am engaged in writing and writing related activities. I don't know if it produces endorphins or what, but there is definitely a bump upward in my mood.
Funny that even doing submissions makes me fee happy. Is that crazy? There was a time that I dreaded, no actually hated doing submissions.
I still get frustrated at times when writing. Hell I get frustrated when anything I'm doing doesn't go like I want it to, but on the whole I am realizing that writing is an uplifted for me. Like a SAD lamp in winter, there clearly seems to be therapeutic value in my writing. People talk about all the "depressed poets" or the well know poets and writers that have taken their own lives like there is a strong link between the two. I've felt that myself at times. But right now, the place I'm in this moment is 180 degrees opposite.
So, next time I'm feeling a little down, pardon me while I get high on writing.
Blessings to you all this week!
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